Very beautiful song by Chen Wei Lian

Give and receive?

Well Saturday was the Mid-autumn Festival, aka the day you got excuse to eat mooncakes :p, and it was also my third date with her. I met her at 5pm at Dhoby Ghaut MRT station but before that I arrived slightly earlier so that I had time to collect a bouquet of 3 red roses that I was planning to give her. I hid it behind my back and waited for her to arrive, where I then surprised her with the bouquet. She was obviously very surprised and she was giggling along the way as we walked to Plaza Singapura. Since it was early, we toured the shopping complex till about 5.45pm before we walked over to Nihon Mura at The Cathay for our dinner. After dinner, we went to catch Cloudy with A Chance of Meatballs in 3D. The 3D glasses were too wide for her and it kept falling off her face. In the end, she had to balance the glasses on her nose which I thought was amusing... oops. The movie was entertaining with a rather good storyline and funny moments. I haven't enjoyed a G-rated movie for a very long time. After the movie, she told me her friends were meeting at pasir ris park to celebrate the mid-autumn festival and she invited me to go to my surprise. We went to carrefour to get lanterns and sparklers. She asked for an additional plastic bag to put the bouquet in it coz she was too embarrassed to carry it around at pasir ris park. I made fun of her by saying she looked as if she went carrefour to buy the bouquet. hahaha. Anyway we headed down to pasir ris where we met up with her best friend, Adeline, whom I know through wlny too, adeline's bf and two other friends. Then I realised that there was actually two couples plus me and my date. Hmmmm... We took bus 403 to pasir ris park which we waited fairly long. And guess wat, I met some of the pple from tamp wlny there! They were going for a drinking session. I knew they were going to be in the area but this was just too coincidental. lol. We found a sheltered area to set up our lanterns and then we took a stroll down the park. We ended up at a abandoned BBQ pit where we took some pictures and stayed to play the sparklers. The sparklers were I think the inferior type coz even though it was 14 inches long, it only lasted less than 20 seconds. Thankfully we bought 2 boxes which added up to 100 sticks. We stayed at the park till about 2.30am before we felt some rain drops. I shared a cab with Adeline and her bf since both of them stayed in tampines while she took the cab with the other couple coz the gal stayed in the same block as her. We parted and that was the end of my 3rd date :(.

Everything seems fine so far judging from the first date till now. But I'm still unsure of how she feels about me coz normally I'm the one who sms or msn her first before we start out conversation. It feels like i'm the only one giving but maybe I'm just thinking too much. After all, she has had only one boyfriend so far and that was 3 to 4 years ago, so she doesn't know how to express her feelings? I'm starting to look desperate since I am always the one initiating the conversation and that's definitely not good.

Anyway Sunday was a day to celebrate my good friend's aka eating partner in NTU belated Birthday. There was 6 of us and we had lunch at Coffee Club at Taka. After that we went to Orchard Cineleisure's Kbox for a KTV session. I stayed till 6pm coz I promised my mum I was going home for dinner.

So that's abt it for my life so far... me and my mid-20s crisis!

Busy week is finally over!

For the benefit of some of my readers, I was actually working for the F1 at the ticketing booth located at gate 3. My job was to print the passes and also to stand in as the supervisor when my supervisor is not around. It was a very busy and hectic week. I started working ever since 21st Sept at Suntec Convention Centre to help out at the collection counter. As you all know it was a public holiday so my pay was actually doubled for that day! Thus, instead of $8 per hr, I got $16 per hour! I worked from 11am to 5pm, then headed down to indoor stadium to do my next event which was Il Divo and that was also doubled. My total earnings for that day was more than $150! Wahahahaha! The next day I went back to Suntec again and worked the whole day, 10am to 10pm. My legs were aching by the end of the day. Wednesday was from 10am to 3pm coz I was too tired to work long hours. Thursday morning we met at 9am to do the packing and shifting of the all the equipment and stuff to our respective ticketing booth. The day ended at 4pm. Friday came which was the first day of the F1 event. Everyone was nervous and yet excited and we had to be mentally prepared for any nasty customers. True enuff, we encountered some problems but fortunately my super zai supervisor could handle it. Before we know it, Sunday came and ended and we were so happy that it was finally over! I managed to go into the circuit to catch a few glimpse of the F1 race on Sunday but I didn't have time to watch the whole race. We did all the packing to send back to SISTIC office and it took so long that I didn't even get a chance to catch Backstreet Boys perform at the Padang area... Sianz... Now, I'm just looking forward to my FAT pay! hehehe!

Most of you may not know but I've actually started dating again. She's someone I met on wlny and she stays at simei. I won't elaborate too much now until we become an item (if that ever happens). I've been out on a first date with her already. We went to orchard central for dinner at a Jap restaurant, followed by a 1 hr Wii session at Cathay Cineleisure and finally ending it off at TCC for a drink. I realised that playing Wii is a very good opportunity to get to know ur date better and it beats just going to the movies where both of you have minimum interactions, hence I highly recommend playing Wii on your first date if you don't have any ideas. I actually offered to send her home but she politely refused so that's how my first date with her ended. When I had to go to Suntec early in the morning for work, I'll usually meet her at simei platform to go together coz she works at Suntec too. Guess what, today is officially my second date with her. I'm planning to drive over to her place to pick her up and we would head to downtown east for dinner. Post dinner activities are still not decided yet. Probably I'll discuss it with her later.

Wish me luck! :)

Finally can relax...

I've been very busy for the past few days, hence I couldn't find time to blog. I had a quiz on wednesday and there was work plus F1 training. I'm really drained right now. Well at least my recess week is coming and I can finally catch my breath.

Guess wat, tonight i'm actually going clubbing after a long long time. The reason is coz it's one of the tamp wlny gal's birthday and she invited me. I was reluctant at first as I dun like to waste money on the entrance fee plus drinks plus cab fare but she sorta begged me to come along so I was like 'ah wat the heck'. What really matters is the company rite? I'll be meeting them at 9.30pm at clarke quay mrt station after my lesson and I told them I'll be leaving by 1.30am coz I've got work tml.

It really has been a roller coaster ride with me and bel, even after we have already broke up. We were actually talking about patching but I wanted to settle certain issues with her first before we decide to patch, otherwise we would end up breaking up again. These issues included her going out with another guy at night, me going out with tamp wlny friends (apparently she doesn't like me to hang out with them) and her family problems. If there was any disagreement, then there was no point in patching up. On wed nite, I got home from sch and then tamp wlny pple were meeting up for supper plus drinks (but obviously I won't drink). I just finished my quiz and so I thought i should go out and relax for a while coz it beats staying at home and doing nothing, so I agreed to come along. I met Ash and JiaHui who stays quite near and headed down together. To my surprise, bel actually smsed me saying she was hungry and wanted to go for supper with me. I was in a dilemma coz it wouldn't be nice to reject my friends whom I've already promised them I'll be going. I can't possibly come up with a excuse because bel wasn't my gf and can't use the gf excuse. So i politely replied her that I'm meeting the wlny pple and I'm sorry I can't join her. Her next sms showed that she was furious coz she thinks that wlny pple are now more important than her and she's a nobody to me. I was really taken aback. I told her that if she had smsed me 10 mins earlier, I would have met her instead and it won't be nice of me to suddenly change my mind abt meeting my wlny friends. She said she will be going to meet her guy friend instead, so I replied ok coz I have no right to say who she can go out with, coz after all we are not together. In the end, she replied saying that she don't want to talk abt patching up coz she is no longer interested. I was fed up with her already. Two days ago (Monday), I came back from work and quickly rushed to the florist shop to get a Sunflower for her, to let her know that I was willing to wait for her. I placed in on her window ledge and left, smsing her after that that I have left a surprise gift. She replied saying that she has a lot of rubbish in her room and ask me not to leave my rubbish (referring to the sunflower) with her and she wanted me to take it back. My heart was really torn apart by her words. And now this happens. I think I've had enuff. I've given in too much and she takes advantage of me. I'll give my love to someone else who deserves it more than her.

At least sunday i'm meeting my NTU friends again. We're planning to go Settler's Cafe because of the long weekend.

Oh ya, Selemat Hari Raya Puasa to all my Muslim readers!

Wonderful Sunday!

Well my day started only at 11am (:p), had breakfast and soon I had to leave for lunch. My family went to Jack's Place and I finally got to order the Ribeye Steak that I haven't ordered for a very long time. Service today was pretty long but thankfully I was still in time to meet up with my friends at Dhoby Ghaut at 2.30pm.

There were 6 of us: Me, Mark, Ming Rong, Jie Yi, Daniel and Melvin, 4 guys and 2 gals... Anyway G-Force wasn't that great. It was really a show suited for kids (it's rated G) and people who love guinea pigs. Just for ur info, it's only 1.5 hrs. After the movie, we took a bus down to Cathay Cineleisure to book a Wii Room but the room would only be available at 7pm. So we decided to have our dinner first and headed to Waraku at Heeren. We stepped in at 5.45pm, took our order at around 6pm but we waited till 6.25pm and the food wasn't even here. Jie yi got really pissed and called for the manager to complain. Finally our food arrived after the lecturing by Jie Yi (*clap clap*). Then, we went down to Cineleisure again and started our Wii games. We began with Rayman: Raving Rabbits coz Guitar Heroes was taken. After that, I managed to find out that Guitar Heroes was back when I went to ask for a battery replacement for my Wii remote. So we ended up playing Guitar Heroes during the last 45 mins.

We ended at 9.20pm and Mark suggested going for drinks. The went to the pubs near Centrepoint. The first one we went in, the waitress asked for our I.C. I was quite surprised then she said that there's a min age limit of 25 years old. Since the gals are only 23, we ended up going to another pub named acid bar. There was a 2-person live band there, a female singer and a male guitarist. Each of us ordered a drink and me of course ordered a non-alcoholic drink, Shirley Temple. It was rather sweet though. We were quite bored after a while so we ended up playing 'chai quan'. At the end of the game, Ming Rong's face and neck was red but she wasn't drunk. She's juz like me, good blood circulation. HAHA. We departed at 10.35pm coz the gals got work tml. I offered to send Ming Rong back since it was rather late and I was a little worried but it was going to be troublesome for me to get back home coz she lives at Jurong East while I live in Tampines. So I told her to sms me when she got home loh. At least she's home safely now.

Long day rite? I'm quite tired but I had fun :) Thanks guys! It really does help with easing the pain.

Stagnant Life... :p

I hate being alone and I got nothing else to do because I'll end up thinking about me and bel. I know all of you would say I should stop thinking about her and I'll definitely find someone better but I've put in too much into this r/s lah. All I ask is just to be a gal who can love me for who I am... is it really too much to ask for in life? You know, I actually thought that I could give bel the good life she deserved and I was the one she wanted to spend the rest of her life with but I guess I was wrong wrong wrong... I even thought of proposing to her next year if everything went well! That was how serious I was about her. You may ask me why am I deciding to settle down so soon with her. Well there are 2 reasons... First reason is caused she's already 24 yrs old and I want her to marry at her prime age so that at least she'll look beautiful in the wedding photos. Secondly, I really did love her, as simple as that. Oh well, life likes to bite you when you least expect it. I wonder how her mum reacted when she knew about our breakup... (maybe her mum still doesn't know)

For now, I'm just burying myself in my lecture notes and working to earn money. At least tomorrow I'll be meeting my NTU friends for a movie. We'll planning to watch G-Force but not in 3D though coz I thought it wasn't worth it ($8 compared to $13).

I hate my life!!!! Argh~!

It's been a while...

I just realised that it's been almost a year since I last blogged. Maybe it's time I summarised what has been going on...

Well for starters, I actually patched with bel, graduated from NTU with a Bachelor's Degree in Materials Science and Engineering (2nd Lower), then applied for my Masters Degree in NUS and got in, started sch just recently and broke up with bel again. Haiz... life is cruel rite?

Some of you may ask why I decided to continue studying. Well the reason behind it is, as all of you know, the current economy isn't doing very well, and it was really very frustrating to find out that none of the companies call me up even after sending more than 20 resumes, both online and hardcopy. So, maybe studying isn't as bad as I thought at all. I predict that by the time I graduate (hopefully in 1.5 years), I would be able to get a decent job, optimistically drawing a pay of $5000 per month. :p And the Masters Degree will cover up the ugly 2nd Lower. Look nicer on the resume rite? Hehe. Anyway I realised studying in NTU is so much better than NUS. NUS is overrated. HAHA.

Some of you may also ask why did I breakup with bel again. Well, we just couldn't share the same views regarding a long-term relationship ba. She said that I don't trust her because I feel uncomfortable when she goes out with guys and I dun like it if she were to go out with a guy late at night. I told her I was ok if she went out with them in the day or maybe just dinner then stay out till 11pm. But that juz wasn't enuff for her. She wanted the complete freedom that she deserved. Hence, she concluded that she wants to be single. And there you have it. Our love just wasn't good enuff to solve this issue. We couldn't even sit down and compromise with each other. Guys and gals, am I really in the wrong for feeling that way about my own gf going out with another guy at nite? Isn't it normal to feel jealousy and be worried about her when you love her? It's not as if I call or sms her every hour when she's out. Maybe it would have been nice if I knew the guy or if she sms me once in a while. Haiz... Oh well, no point crying over spilled milk now.

I guess I started blogging again coz I feel bored and it is a way to relieve stress. *wonders* It will just take time for the pain and emptiness to go away.

Exams are over!

Exams are finally over which means I only have one more semester left before I graduate. So scary! I still got one month plus left before I have sch starts again. During this one month, I have work and also I got to go back to sch to do my FYP. But most of the time I guess I'll be very bored at home. Sianz... Somebody please ask me out! LOL!

I guess I got to go source for jobs soon since I dun think I'll be capable enough to continue studying a Masters degree. Friends from WLNY have been asking me to plan a christmas gathering since I'm so free but I can't think of any at the moment coz I have to accomodate everyone. BBQ and chalet are out since it's already too late and slightly ex. KTV is out bcoz one of my friends is a malay. Headache rite? So i'm still brainstorming... Probably just dinner or sthg. But i think we should really sit down and discuss though, make my life easier... hahaha...

Well i've got nothing much to update so I'll juz stop here ba. I need a movie buddy! LOL :p